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trail at novel writing !!!!

Time passed as he lay there bleeding in my arms. The wounds covered his face; I could barely find a spot that was not red, I could see him suffer but yet he smiled at the sight of me. His eyes remained closed but the smile stayed fixed on his lip, perhaps he was reassuring me. I knew that this mission would end up as a death bed for either one of us, but I was so full of pride that I accepted it and dragged Jin into this, it was entirely my fault that he was suffering. I should have completed this mission alone at least I would have saved Jin. “ I’m so sorry Jin ,I’m sorry I dragged you in this, I’m sorry ,I’m so sorry Jin ,please don’t die please don’t ,DON’T LEAVE MEEE” I hadn’t realized that I was screaming ,the only thing in my mind was to somehow save Jin. My eyes started to blur ,I felt moisture in my eyes ,I was crying ,crying my heart out. I already knew that once Jin died my life will be finished too, he was like my other half, we couldn’t be separated from each other, the affection we held for each other was stronger than anything in the world around us. The smell of blood drifted through the hall, every single body rotting to bits. It seemed more like a grave yard than a dancing hall. Sitting in the middle of all the dead with Jin in my hands was unbearable, I just wanted to escape from there as soon as possible but I couldn’t leave Jin there alone. Then it occurred to me that I could carry Jin out of here but I only wish now that he could have made it out. Tears were pouring down my cheeks as I carried Jin away from the hall, from the pain Jin was feeling. Then suddenly Jin removed his hand from my shoulder and dropped to the ground. “Leave me here and go; you already know that it’s useless”. His voice was low but there was authority in it. Jin was finally speaking he was conscious, I was so happy that I didn’t want to listen to him say things like that. “Jin don’t say that, I can’t leave you here alone, you know that right?” “No! I don’t” his body shuddered as he spoke; his words were making me cry again. I couldn’t believe what he said; it hurt me to listen to him. Crying I fell to the ground, pleading him to come with me and he sat there looking at me through those blue eyes that shined in the light of sun, but that sun no longer remained and the shine of those blue eyes faded. I sat there crying for a long minute and suddenly I was surrounded by Jin’s arms, it killed me to think this maybe the last time for me to cry in these warm arms. Moments passed as we sat there so still that it looked like we were statues. The love I felt in Jin for me was unexpected. It was like the warm fire in the hall room in winters, how we used to sit in front of the fire place and drank hot coffee. As I thought about those times I started remembering all our childhood together, the time we spent together. It seemed as if the whole world was put on reverse button. Somehow life was easier back then we didn’t have to work so hard to live, we didn’t even have to leave each other side. All the bad things happen to adult’s right? I thought. But now that we were adults we had to face the same ups and downs. These ups and downs weren’t the one I originally thought of in the beginning, when we started working for this agency ‘THE COUNCIL’. To me past had no meaning at the moment only the present matter and if I didn’t do anything I would not have any future. Every now or then I looked at Jin to make sure he was okay, and every time I looked he noticed the worry in my face and smiled to me like we weren’t in a situation that was way beyond our abilities and if we stayed here we were as good as dead. “Nana, I need to ask you a favor” he said. His voice somehow had a lot of grieve in it. “Of course you can ask for anything you want, I would never refuse your wish.” I said with an encouraging smile. “Please leave me and go”. “What the hell are you talking about how can I leave u here in this undertakers den ? Huh?” I didn’t realize I was talking too loud. Jin suddenly placed his hand over my mouth and said in a firm voice “Nana listen to me, you have to leave me behind and you can go and get help for us.” “Do you understand? If so answer me quietly”. “Okay, I get it but promise me that you will be here when I get back with help.”I offered my hand to Jin so that he could shake it and make a deal. “Okay, yeah I promise that I will be here when you get back.” “DEAL” we said together. I left the corridor where now Jin laid asleep, I went through the hall again to reach the main entrance door. I pushed the door open and found the same scene from the hall outside. I ran out to find help and when I returned to the building it was already collapsing. The only thing in my mind at the time was to save Jin no matter what. I ran inside, not looking back at the officer calling me. Everything was scattered I ran to where Jin was and I couldn’t find him there. It all began to make sense, Jin was just trying to protect me, that’s why he told me to leave and find help .he had intended to do it from the beginning, that’s right he wanted to make me safe. I’m sorry Jin I couldn’t save you I’m so sorry. “I’M SORRY JIN, PLEASE FORGIVE ME” I shouted. My voice echoed in the building and by the time I heard my own voice, I was unconscious. I was forced to admit that Jin was dead and there was no body found. After a week of investigation a letter was found, it was named to me from Jin. Dear Nana, It seems that you are reading my letter right now, but I am no longer there for you. Please accept my apology and go on living, enjoy your life do all the things you ever wanted and become a strong woman .this is my fare well to you ,I will always love from the bottom of my heart……. Jin. Well that was the end. As I read the letter my heart fell apart one by one and I sank in sorrow.

first day at choir practice !!!

the whole point of being chosen in a choir is that u have an awesome, beautiful voice…… and some times it makes you feel proud of your self that you can sing better than some ……

but as it happens … the first of practice really teaches you that how unfortunate you are …… that you can sing and then you get the feeling that maybe it was best to not sing out loud :D 

no offence to those who love singing :)